In this episode I share why bindge eating was my, “false adventure.”

When I heard Jordan Peterson, in conversation on the Iced Coffee Hour podcast, refer to addiction as being a, "False Adventure." I had an "ah-ha" moment. "Oh yes," I thought, "Binge Eating is a False Adventure."

I began bindge eating as a response to the restriction I thought required to maintain a perfectly chiseled, adolescent, athletic physique. Once learned, binge eating became my coping mechanism, my avoidant mechanism, my source of exhilaration, joy, sadness, it became my everything, it was my adventure.

Motivated by the lie of vanity, this adventure in retrospect was, of course, a false pursuit.

The evidence for this adventure being false included: the rare presence of peace, all too prevalent mood swings, anxiety inducing hyper-vigilance and ultimately depression. Extreme soul crushing depression. Truly... the Pits of Hell.

After years of disordered eating God's grace stopped me mid-binge. My neurochemistry re-oriented and the rest of my physiology followed suit. It was this understanding that settled into my soul, "I do not want you to put the food down because I hate you and am trying to deprive you, I want you to put the food down because I love you and I do not want you to continue to spiral downward."

I was profoundly, without drug inducement neurochemically changed, never before had I felt so loved, truly...The Heights of Psychological Beauty.

From that moment forward I embarked on a true, more fruitful adventure and the outcome has been, in part, the “Heights of Beauty and the Pits of Hell” podcast.